Tuesday, August 08, 2017

New Beginnings

:: New Beginnings ::

On Sunday afternoon we went on a long walk in the woods. While walking along the path we came to a place where you could not see where the path was leading because the undergrowth was thick with trees and plants. I felt like we were meant to walk this way since we beginning a new journey in our family life. Just as the path was unclear so is the path that lay before us. We willing take each step as we enter a new chapter. 

The last eleven years we have traveled and lived in many states as a part of my husband's military commitment. We have been renting homes in many places and seeing different parts of the country. It has been exciting, stressful, and all together crazy at times. It has shaped who we are as a couple and family. I am much stronger at the end of this path than I was at the beginning. I learned so much about myself, others, and the sacrifices all of us as military families are asked to make on a daily basis. I met some truly wonderful people along the way and they have enriched my life. 

But now comes the time when those years of transition are over. Later this month, we will be closing on a beautiful home on the Eastern Shore of Maryland. On a whim, we drove to a little area that both my husband and I have ties to and we went to look at a home. It was a kind of lark. One of those things where you look at each other and say, "well, what the heck! Let's do it!". As it turns out this little lark was something bigger and when we stepped onto the property and into the house we knew that this would be our home. It is going to be a big change. We are leaving one town and becoming the part of another town. The home is beautiful and the property is tranquil. We will have room to spread out and live. We can have big vegetable and flower gardens and even chickens! I can't tell you how long I have waited for chickens. It is rural, flat, coastal, and beautiful. A place where I hope we can make many happy memories as a family. 

This new chapter also means some big changes in our lifestyle. We will need to join a new church, make new friends, and my husband will be working from home a lot more. The last part is a change that I will happily make. I am greedy and enjoy being with my husband. But the biggest change will be that we have dedicated ourselves to homeschooling our children. It is something that my husband and I have talked and prayed over quite a bit in the last month. We have sought counsel from my parents and other homeschooling friends. We sat and talked with our girls about what they want and how they feel. We know that this is no small undertaking and that we are going to embark on a path that is less traveled than most. We will forge our way carving a new path for our family. Our children will learn through a private school, they will do things and have experiences that will shape them as they grow. Our family will support us and as a family our children will learn from parents and grandparents. We will make new friendships and meet others on a similar path. There will undoubtedly be good days and bad days maybe even some downright terrible days but it is a calling that we are willing to undertake. The most exciting part is dreaming about where this will take us as become accustom to our new lifestyle. 

So with two big feet, two medium feet, six little feet, some dog paws and soon some chicken feet firmly planted on the path before us, we slowly begin to walk. 

Monday, January 02, 2017

Resolutions in 2017

:: Resolutions in 2017 ::

                       The new year is finally here after a roller coaster of a year for many including myself. The past year in many respects has felt like round after round of whirling drama, anger, sadness, and general meanness in our country. I know my soul is weary from the past year for many reasons. I know the souls of family  and friends are tired from their own trials and tribulations. It was a year of difficulties for many but I cannot help but think that this past year may have made me stronger in my soul and mind. The tough situations that I face are brought to me to make me stronger. My husband uses the phrase "adapt and overcome". Adapt to the changes in my home and life by growing in who I am as an individual. And then, overcome the fears and difficulties of the past year so that this year can be used for doing good in my home, community, and world. 

I love the new year. I love the freshness of beginning again and trying to be a better version of myself than last year. I love making resolutions and seeing if throughout this new year I can achieve my goals. I love making a list of little projects and milestones I hope to achieve. Each year on this earth is a gift that I am given and I do not want to squander that gift to achieve my goals for the new year. I love to make and share my resolutions for the year as it will hold me accountable. 

My 5 Resolutions for 2017: 

Resolution #1: find our home.

This year will be our biggest year yet. The prospect of buying a home is around the corner and that comes with very big decisions to be made. Decisions about where to buy, what to buy, and the schooling of the children. We thought that last year would be the year and it just wasn't the right time. It was hard to accept the fact that we just were not finding the right home for our family especially when everyone you know owns a home. It took me a while to realize that we are not like anyone we know in our small town. We were a newly separated military family who has lived in many places and moved many times. We had moved and made sacrifices in our life that many don't know anything about.  So, this year I am taking off the comparison "glasses" and not worry about keeping up with everyone else. The right home is out there and we will find it. 

Resolution #2: time in mediation and prayer. 

It goes without saying that I do not spend as much time as I would like just sitting and being present in my body and mind. I do not sit down and really pray to God as much as I would like. I do not meditate on life as much as I would like. I will do more of this in the new year because when it does happen I walk away from it feeling refreshed and renewed. A very cheap way to give my soul a facelift. 

Resolutions # 3 through 5: Read, Create, and Travel

Read more books. 
Write on this blog. 
Share my talents and work with others. 
Get stuff made. 
Get writing published. 
Go see the country ( I would say the world but with three children we might just stick to the country for the next couple years). 

I like to choose a word or words to carry me through the year. This year I chose "Love".

A pure, unbiased, unflinching love for others. The kind that carries those who stumble and embolden those who waiver. The kind that gives you courage and ignites your heart. Choosing to love others instead of fearing or disliking them. The love that you have to sometimes work at to get right.